Farewell to a constellation
Of regret, but mostly memory
And memory cherished.
No night without dreaming
And I dream,
I dream of naught.
No stars without darkness,
No morning I sought.
And to say goodbye to
Friends become family
And family become blood bought.
How quickly I forget
How quickly the memory runs cold and blameless.
How quickly I’m forgot
And we remember that this is meaningless.
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The deadly silence, can’t you see,
Floating between you and me,
Threatens to tear us, break apart,
From this destiny we’ll depart?
One less hello, one less goodbye,
Is all it takes to pass us by.
Before we know it we’ve moved on
Trying to find where our hearts belong.
Little do we search and little do we know,
Into what stream all our time flows.
One more day and all our hope,
Away, perhaps on wings, float.
In this way, we will see,
If we’ll take our paths, separately.
For once it is my turn to say goodbye,
And you wondered if you would see the day.
Of all the unasked questions, don’t ask why.
You know the answer, to you I would say.
At one time I loved you, I truly did.
We had no need for secrets between us.
When first we had suffered, when first you hid.
The bridge that began to die was our trust.
And with that dead, nothing much left to save.
It was your choice, and you chose to end it.
Your tears are nothing but ash, burnt and grey.
You chose his over mine. You can keep it.
I’ll always miss you, it’s you I love most.
But this I can’t forgive, through it I can’t coast.
These tears I shed for you were my,
Only way of saying goodbye.
Another chance I wish I’d had
To see you smiling, but I can’t.
I’ll remember the time that we,
Were friends. and life,
As it used to be.
Heaven’s now a brighter place
And this world a little darker.
You will be missed in that death you don’t belong.
You will be missed in how you were
-Dedicated to Rachel M.
I used to work with Rachel, she was a good friend to me and a good friend to a lot of people. Where we worked, most everyone looked out for each other and helped out when needed, people there were giving and caring. Even customers would comment on how the employees had a family attitude. So in 2011 on the day she died, everyone felt it. Even customers. Everyone who came into the store knew something was wrong.One of my friends had called me up 2-3am that morning and told me that she died in a car wreck, that she just got hit by a drunk driver and died instantly.
And just like that, she was gone. No goodbyes, nothing. Just gone. I had just worked with her two days before not knowing that it would be the last time I would see her. I went to her funeral and tried to say goodbye there but I couldn’t do it. It wasn’t until her mother put up a cross where the accident was that I could really say goodbye. It took me a long time to say it, but I finally did. It still hurts and I still miss her like crazy, and I always will, but now it hurts a little less since I was finally able to let go. Here’s to hoping I’ll see you again someday. Rachel, rest in peace my friend.